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Oops + June Book Challenge

And… I’ve done it again. Gone AWOL, off the map. Terrible week. No beating about the bush. I couldn’t really face the idea of writing posts on here, pretending things are okay when they’re not. I sometimes (correction: always) wonder what the point in having a blog like this (i.e. personal, rather than a book review blog, which I’m considering starting, but then I’d have THREE blogs, so…) if I can’t actually write what I feel. I’m too worried about triggering others, unintentionally ‘thinspiring’ people. I’ve written private posts, so I suppose it’s the same as the diary I kept for years. But what’s the point in writing words when nothing changes?

Sorry, having one of those days. So, in case anyone was wondering, hello! I haven’t walked off the edge of the world yet. Still here, hanging on. Going through the motions. Or something like that.

It feels like, on a grander scale, it’s a shaming time to be a human being. I know murders happen a lot. Even in the UK, although we think it remains a US problem, people are killed every day. So, the atrocity today of Jo Cox after the gun massacre in the US and Nigel Farage’s BrExit campaign poster, and the ridiculous horrendous violence of football fans… There are so many reasons to be ashamed of living on a big scale, as well as on the scale of me as an individual.

What am I talking about? The ramblings of someone who’s half starved, lulled to a stupor by weeks and weeks of doing nothing, living through a screen or a keyboard, not even able to read most of the time, concentrating on nothing.

SNAP OUT OF IT. That’s what I should be screaming at myself. But it’s the same as bashing your head against a brick wall. It doesn’t change anything.

Right. Change of scene. Curtains rise on a new set.

Reading Challenge. June 16th. Inspirational Read.




I can’t think of a book. But here’s a quote:

Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can’t help them, at least don’t hurt them. (The Dalai Lama)


dbsgirl x

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June 13th Book Blogging


Wanderlust… Ah, there are so many places I want to go! The first book that really captivated me was Che Guvyerara’s ‘The Motorcycle Diaries.’ It was my aim to spend a year travelling South America with someone amazing that I would meet, on the back of their back, following his path. It was a serious dream: it was for gap year.

I guess so many things that I’ve planned and dreamed of in my life have not come off. I did have a ‘gap year’ before ‘university.’ I spent a year in and out of hospital, before managing two weeks at university, and afterward followed five and a half years straight in various different hospitals under section and, toward the end, as a voluntary (ish) patient, before discharge as they didn’t know what to do with me.


So, ‘The Motorcycle Diaries’ was what really inspired me for so many years as a young adult, but now… I can’t read it. It’s too painful. Knowing that the likelihood of my ever going (with the bones of a ninety year old, under 24 hour paid surveillance, lacking capacity, not being able to intake anything but liquids, a tube up my nose, not allowed out) makes it too hard, even though it was a favourite book. Incidentally, the film is amazing as well. I would recommend it to everyone. To everybody. Anyone.

The politics of Ernesto and Che are fascinating, but it was the places I yearned for. Wanderlust indeed.

dbsgirl x

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A Big Thank you to Daisy

This Girl is amazing, much more so than I will ever be. You probably already follow her, because she has a big readership – but go on over and check her out. She’s a generous, caring and thoughtful human being I’m glad to call my friend.

It is that time again. More SHOUT OUTS for all the new fabulous flowers/followers who have taken a chance on Daisy in the Willows.This is my time to express my gratitude in the best way I know. It also is a chance to get to know your Blogs more personally. I do go and check […]

via Forever Grateful #shout outs #awards — Daisy in the Willows

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12th June Summer Reading!



Favourite villain? Ooh, that’s a fiendish one. (See what I did there? Ha.)

My immediate thought was Voldemort from HP series, but that’s too obvious. But actually? That remains my choice.

Voldemort isn’t just an evil villain who’s out to get the world, a Hitler, a general fascist. I mean he is those things, but we get to learn so much more about him. In HP6 all those memories that Harry gets to see in the pensive… Tom Marvolo Riddle is a real person. Maybe he has become the simple epitome of evil, and nothing more, but you can see how he got there. He was a child. Horrible and awful things happened to him, and he didn’t respond in a healthy way. Him and Harry are so alike in many ways; Harry could have been Voldemort if he hadn’t had the support and guidance that was generously offered him.

And actually, that’s how I think of everyone in the world. People who we may call ‘evil’ (e.g. Hitler) – they are actually a sum of their own experiences. No one is born evil. I don’t believe in evil. I feel sorry for bullies, and people who commit atrocities because there is something within them – a mistake, genetics, experience, misguidance – that means they believe they are doing the right thing.

To make it topical: the mass shooting recently in LA. That man truly believed that he was doing the right thing. Obviously, it was not: he was wrong, misguided, twisted. But he thought he was right. I’m not advocating terrorism or trying to defend him, but trying to understand the world he lives in. Of course, I feel for the victims and their families, that goes without saying. Their lives have been torn apart. But so has his.

I guess I like villains that feel real. Not just ‘evil.’ Because there is no such thing. Every single person has the propensity to be good, but some people are led the wrong way. They deserve our pity too.

(I hope no one slams me for saying this. To make it clear: I’m not condoning murder, or any act of violence or aggression. It’s just a belief I have of the world. There are no ‘bad’ people. And I’m not saying that in a naive sense.)

Well, there we are: a rather philosophical entry today!

What does anyone else think? How can we help people who feel the need to act in such horrific ways, before it comes to pulling a trigger?

dbsgirl x

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11th June Summer Reading 16


Now, I’ve realised that it doesn’t HAVE to be books read in the last month, this makes the challenge so much easier! I probably only read about 15 or so books last month, so I was panicking a bit.


Now, I’ve read a lot of really good graphic novels: manga, Marvel etc. But one has really stood out to me through all the years. It sounds a bit geeky, sorry :S


But, hey: I am a geek, so I might as well celebrate it! I LOVE Shakespeare, and this rendition is fantastic. It’s unabridged, which is quite unusual for graphic Shakespeares, and the images are truly haunting. If anyone has to study it at some point and is struggling: read this book. You will fall in love. King Lear is my favourite Shakespeare (well, favourite of the tragedies anyway, I have different for comedies and histories) and this probably contributed to that.

It’s a horrific story (for those that don’t already know it), heart-breaking, sad, frightening, cruel, brutal but fantastic.

So, graphic novels can be really serious. (My second choice would have been Maus).

dbsgirl x

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I have a new charger! And June Reading Challenge…

And I can’t believe that it took so long. It took SIX DAYS for apple to get the correct charger to me and, to be honest,  I’m really not impressed. I’m still catching up on all your blogs, but I’m going to have a go at the June Reading Challenge. I so wish that I’d started at the beginning, I feel left out 😦 (my own fault). But thank you so much to gettingthroughanxiety for introducing me to the idea. I adore reading; for me reading and music are ‘safe spaces’ for me usually. Sometimes there’s nowhere safe, but you know what I mean.

I’m not doing the film one because I don’t see enough films, certainly not within a month! They’d all end up being the same! So for the 10th, the topic is …


That makes book and beverage, which is probably the hardest for me, because my ED won’t let me drink anything unless it’s measured and officially on my meal plan (and it just water).

So… I’ll go back in time to when things were different. I used to love reading Alice in Wonderland with a big old cup of steaming tea.


I don’t think this one needs much explaining! Everyone knows Alice in Wonderland. If you’ve only seen the film, you don’t know what you’re missing! Completely eccentric and bizarre prose, extra characters that are missed out. I hate the Johnny Depp film, I haven’t seen the latest, but I do like the Disney one. Everyone likes Disney, right?

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